Lately the one common denominator amongst many, is a deep feeling of being alone, even in the company of others.
There are many forms of loneliness; it can be physical, mental or emotional. At the moment, we seem to be going through all of them, at the same time, which can feel very isolating.
It’s ironic that at a time when connecting with one another has never been easier, we are actually feeling more disconnected than ever.
There is an overarching sense that we are not being heard, that we are not being seen, that we are not being understood and that we are not being held or nurtured at this very vulnerable time of transformation. It’s cold out here, it’s tough and brutal, but I have come to realise, it’s the only way to get where we need to be and there’s a reason for it.
This journey is one that we must take alone because it’s a journey of inner remembrance. It doesn’t necessarily mean that you have to do it unaccompanied, but it is by its nature, an individualised process of self-realisation, one that in many cases we must, and we are, going through alone.
If it’s any consolation, know that you are not alone in your feeling of loneliness and that as you peel off the layers that were never ‘you’ and you get to the essence of who you always were, you will start to connect with that which binds us all; the thread of divinity with which we were created.
There is unity at the end of this experience of separation, cohesion when you stop focusing on the incoherent, clarity when the veil is lifted and an overwhelming, nurturing and uplifting energy of love when you start to tap into the lifeline of Creation.
Nobody said it would be easy, this, after all, is the ultimate test, the final chance, to show, to prove, to reach, to become who you need to be in order to make it to the other side.
Remember we chose this journey, so when the going gets tough, just remind yourself of that and take the next step, God is with those that keep walking. Alone? No, not really… 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻
Southern Live OakResurrection Fern perked up after recent rainsRiver to Sea PreserveSome of the Christmas decorations @ Washington Oaks GardensMonarch Butterfly in the Gardens (butterfly was moving!)Some more Holiday DecorationsThis magnificent Live Oak is a centerpiece at the GardensLigularia Dentata Reniformis – Tractor Seat PlantSpectacular Ligularia’s Winter ShowLate RoseBoardwalk @ Betty Steflik Preserve – Flagler Beach
Today was a perfect Solstice hike to three different parks, River to Sea Preserve, Washington Oaks Gardens, and Betty Steflik Preserve. The parks weren’t crowded; it’s kind of shoulder season for Florida, being just before Christmas. The visitors tend to arrive after the holidays.
Since I waited until the schools were open (no buses) and commute was done, there was hardly any traffic on my way to the beach.
I was the only one at River to Sea… which I much prefer so I can soak up the wonderful presence of the grand oak hammock there.
When I arrived at Washington Oaks, I noticed their beach access was still closed off. In the past, the dunes have been damaged by storm surge and we just endured two hurricanes in the area this past season. Bella Vista Nature Walk was also still closed, completely taped off. I asked the lady at the booth about the progress. I could see for myself they’re having to use heavy equipment to remove some of the large trees that had fallen in the latest set of hurricanes. I also hiked down Mala Compra Trail. There was a maintenance fellow pulling out palm fronds and broken branches from the underbrush. The path is just wide enough to drive a small skid steer tractor down it or a utility vehicle.
Betty Steflik Preserve was pretty quiet too, except for the cry of an osprey overhead and the hum / roar of traffic crossing the Moody Blvd. Bridge (SR 100).
All in all, it was a lovely peaceful outing in perfect Florida weather (57 to 63 F ).
P.S. In keeping with the holidays, I’m going to be posting less. I think everyone is feeling the fatigue from information overload particularly here in the United States. Enjoy your holidays.
Visiting Sandhill Cranes – Princess PlaceGhost Forest – hurricane damageKODAK Digital Still CameraPond at River to Sea PreserveTractor Seat Plant – Washington Oaks GardensFading RoseWindy day on Intracoastal WatersMoody Blvd. Bridge, Flagler BeachCedar Creek, Bulow WoodsKODAK Digital Still CameraGreat Blue Heron, Cedar CreekBulow CreekBulow CreekYaupon Holly in full berryPellicer Creek, Princess PlaceTurkey Oak beginning to color upLong Leaf Trail, Princess PlaceObstacle – I climbed under it, not very gracefully…Stiles Creek CampgroundStiles Creek Salt MarshStiles CreekCovered Bridge, Princess PlaceTrail Map Princess Place
Here are some of the walks I’ve done in the past couple of weeks. I’m still getting used to my new camera. It seems to take darker images than the Nikon. Still, I’m not trying to do professional photography here. I think I take a camera along as a habit and kind of comfort blanket. In the past, I have done paintings of some of these scenes but am not set up for doing painting right now.
On some of these hikes I encountered closed trails due to wind damage from one or more of the hurricanes we endured in this area. On the whole, we did okay, but the heavy winds do occasionally take down some of the heavier old oaks or snap branches off the palms. The northern portion of Bulow Woods is still shut down due to a hurricane two years ago. Still, the damage locally is by no means comparable to what WNC and Eastern TN endured.
The weather in Florida has moderated. We’re going to get a cold snap tomorrow with a low of 39 – 40 degrees F (4 C) and highs at 60 F (15C). That’s ‘cold’ for Florida so I’ll be wearing a sweatshirt. I love winters here. There’s no ice to scrape off the windshield in the morning.
Lately I have the impression that people are being forced to face their inner shadows whether they want to or not. I have several friends whose life circumstances are pushing them to have to look inside and figure out why they are the way they are.
They mostly resist, for it is those who hide more trauma, that wish not to face it. They tend to be people that have learned all sorts of coping mechanisms to hide their inner ghosts; they lie a lot, they make bad choices, they lie some more to justify their bad choices, they then feel bad about it and try to cover the pain with more bad choices and the vicious circle is perpetuated.
The underlying problem is, generally, that they grew up not liking themselves, feeling like they weren’t enough because perhaps they weren’t loved enough by those that should have been there for them. And the more bad choices they make, the more they disapprove of themselves, until they shy away from anyone that gets too close, scared that what they perceive as their inner ‘ugliness’ might show.
So they sabotage meaningful friendships and relationships in favour of meaningless, superficial interactions which don’t compromise them.
But now the time has come when they can no longer run away or hide from their inner chaos because their lives are falling apart, now they can see that they can’t go on like this; life is forcing them to deal with the pain, to understand it, to process it, to learn from it and to let it go.
The less they like themselves the harder it is to help them, for they are too afraid you might see them how they see themselves and the fake facade they’ve so carefully crafted all their lives will come crumbling down leaving them vulnerable and ‘naked’.
Be there for them without judgment, be the listening ear, the open heart and the shoulder to cry on. It’s a difficult time for a lot of people right now because it is time to get on the right path, but only those that have done the inner work will be able to access it. So help those that need support and encouragement right now. We need to ‘save’ as many people as possible. ❤️❤️❤️
I don’t know about the “saving” aspect of Laura’s message, but the gist is true. If someone asks for help, listen to them. Refrain from offering advice. Especially refrain from judgment.
I’m not perfect either, but have a housemate who fits the above description of such a lost soul as depicted in Laura’s article. She’s moving out this week. I scared her. She was running away from herself and ran away from everyone in the household, not just me. I understand the roots of her pain, but having dealt with my own family-related issues in my own way, I didn’t offer any sympathy. I don’t believe in feeling pity for those who suffer. In one way or another, they brought upon themselves the opportunity to learn from the experience. Those who refuse to… will only prolong or delay the suffering.
I’ve learned it is not necessary to please people and do what I want to when I want to… although within my current financial means. People adjust to me or they don’t. I’m not going to compromise myself for their comfort. I will listen, but they must be willing to do the inner work.
On behalf of my readers, if you send me a direct email I will answer questions if you are puzzled about topics that you read about on Sunny’s Journal. Still, I’m not a prophet, philosopher, alien abductee, or anything highly extraordinary. I am a person… an elder. I’ve lived on the fringe of society in this lifetime rather than being a leader… been there, done that… and suffered greatly as a result, losing my life more than once. With my limited experience in this lifetime… I can still offer up my wisdom on occasion. What you do with it is your business and responsibility. And if I don’t know the answer I will tell you so. Proceed at your own risk.
P.S. No trolls allowed. Impertinent emails, comments, will be deleted and the perpetrator blocked.
Note: The artwork above is AI-generated. That’s its conception of a middle-aged female. I would put her as being much older, but went with it anyway. The intention was for the subject to appear tired, confused, and sad.
Dans un avenir proche, nous serons tous en contact avec les peuples des étoiles. J’ai eu l’honneur d’être l’une des rares personnes qui ont ouvert la voie à la multitude. Un jour, chacun d’entre vous sera témoin de ce que j’ai vu. Lorsque je regarde vers le futur, mon cœur est rempli de paix et de joie, car j’entrevois un avenir merveilleux. Un avenir de fraternité entre tous les humains de Terra, partagé avec le peuple des étoiles. J’aimerais pouvoir vous montrer ce que je vois, partager les sentiments que j’éprouve et l’espoir… un pont entre le Crépuscule et l’Aube.
In a near future, we will all be ET Contactees. I have had the honor to be one of the few who paved the way for the many. One day, each of you will witness all that I have seen. When I look ahead, my heart is filled with peace and joy, for I see a wonderful future. A future of Fraternity between all humans of Terra, shared with the Star People. I wish I could make you see what I see, share the feelings in my chest, and Hope… bridge between Dusk and Dawn.
They didn’t expect us to stand together. They didn’t expect us to walk from our careers, to leave our shoes behind.
They didn’t expect us to boycott our old ways of living. They didn’t think we would give up our social activities. They didn’t expect us to do without restaurants, sports or concerts. They didn’t expect us to find new and better things to do.
They didn’t expect the free thinkers to be so resilient. They didn’t expect our souls to be so filled with passion and strength.
They didn’t expect our intuition to be so tuned in. They didn’t expect the fire within us to put all of hell to shame.
It has become very clear that those who have made their choice will not waiver in their decision. There is nothing that can be said, done or taken away that will coherse us into submission. We do not fear death and therefore choose life!
We choose to live life in this sacred temple with honor, dignity and truth. Because life is precious and also temporary, it will be over our dead body that we will comply with orders from their mind control.
We free thinkers will always seem crazy to those who can’t see beyond conventions. We’re being ridiculed for evolving past people’s comfort zones. Self educated people who escape the shackles of deception will never be fooled by institutionalized propoganda.
I say we because I am not alone. There are me’s in every country, city and town. There are me’s isolated in the mountain’s and me’s strategically placed in positions of power. Our resolve is being tested like never before which may seem hard right now but we always knew this was never going to be easy.
The opportunity to create our own reality is upon us as it is times such as these that force us to do what is necessary. Not just necessary for our survival but what is necessary for a life worth living.
Nothing is what it seems so keep an open mind. We’re waking up collectively as a species at a speed never seen before. So buckle up, keep your eyes on the ball and enjoy the ride, because things are going to get a lot more weird and crazy before they get better.
So to all those that have been called, conspiracy theorists, misfits, crazy nut jobs and space cadets. Never give up, keep doing what you’re doing and stay focused, we got this.
❤️ See you on the other side Fam….its gonna be glorious!
~John Parry/T
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Note to Readers:
I’ve been called many names and accused of things I have not done. Yet, I have stood quietly or at least sat quietly typing out my opinions and notes, using the pen (or laptop) as my weapon of choice in this battle between good and evil currently playing out on the stage of our world. Was I aware I would be here today spending hours reviewing videos and articles and then posting them for a tiny audience of less than 1,000 people? No… it wasn’t planned. It wasn’t intentional. This passion of mine developed organically as a consequence of seeing a need within me to communicate… not to family or friends, of which I have few right now, but to an unseen audience of patient readers. Some come and go and I wish them well, but I’m not here to please people or to fulfill their needs above what I sense is right… for me.
Am I a hero? I don’t know that… Yes, I get the occasional note of thanks from a few readers, but not much else — save the rare few who have aided me beyond my ability to truly thank them. Still, with little praise I continue this work. In the process I have come to appreciate my love of language as it is through words I convey my thoughts on current and past events.
This little blog has changed in extraordinary ways… and when the movie ends, it will change once more, exactly how I can’t predict right now. We can only flow with the course of events as disclosure overtakes our world view and our planet changes forever.
My role in this lifetime has been a minor one, but knowing my efforts have had an effect on some people has made it feel worthwhile.
I want to extend my thanks to all who come to these digital pages. Without your encouragement, I probably wouldn’t have continued… or perhaps I would have. As my father said, I am stubbornly independent and don’t like to told what to do or how to think, which makes me perfect for this self-motivated work.
We can’t all be alien contactees or abductees now can we? I’m neither to the best of my knowledge, but I’ve always known that aliens or extraterrestrials (and Inner Earth beings) are as real as our next door neighbors. I was reading science fiction and fantasy as a pre-teen and haven’t looked back. I never sought to fit into things I thought were stupid and illogical. I resisted the siren call of the masonic orders — I have Masons on both sides of the family. I walked away from many groups, from a cult, from one who claimed to be my starry sister… in response to an inner knowing.
We all have our own paths to follow. None of us are cookie-cutter beings. We have complex, ancient soul lineages and for one who is as intuitive as myself, it is impossible to conform entirely to outer expectations of people, which doesn’t make me very popular in some circles.
I live a simple life and will continue to do so in the coming years. It is the way I am, the way I seek to be, close to nature, animals, creativity, and quiet.
Christmas approaches… but I have chosen to no longer support this Satanic holiday. When I again live on my own, I will create my own traditions. I know too much about the reality behind the doctrines and dogma of the church to believe in its validity. Eventually, those whom I have offended by my blunt manner of expression will come to learn the truth I attempted to share. In my own way, I’ve been a conspiracy theorist since I started reading books from the library as a 10-year-old.
Celebrate those among us who have pursued their paths with enthusiasm and dedication. Celebrate yourselves as members of an swiftly evolving race which will soon be reaching for the stars and healing our mother planet, Gaia.
Again, thanks to those who have long followed my wandering path and have patiently read my opinions and articles. Peace out.
WE ARE PROTECTED BY GLORIOUS BASTARDS, ONE AND ALL!
YES, THE NATIONAL EMERGENCY DECLARED BY PRESIDENT TRUMP ON 9/12/2018 IN EXECUTIVE ORDER 13848 IS STILL ACTIVE! Biden extended it in September 2024, but don’t let that fool you—it remains a Trump-activated POWER MOVE.
This declaration unleashes MASSIVE executive powers! It grants control over military, economic, and emergency responses like never before. Trump has had these tools since Day One:
Key Authorities Trump Activated:
National Emergencies Act (NEA): Framework for unprecedented actions.
IEEPA: Power to freeze assets, regulate trade, and protect national interests.
Defense Production Act: Absolute control over resource allocation and production.
War Powers: Military dominance during homeland threats.
Military’s Role Under Trump’s Command:
Deploy Forces: National Guard and active duty troops can mobilize on U.S. soil under federal control!
Control Critical Resources: Through the Defense Production Act, private industries are aligned with national defense needs.
Border Security: Enhanced border operations. TROOPS could be used to ensure integrity at all costs.
Cyber Warfare: Full authority to counter digital threats, dominate the cyber realm, and protect sovereignty.
Continuity of Government: Plans ready to ensure America operates in ANY crisis!
HERE’S WHAT’S COMING NEXT:
Trump has vowed:
MASSIVE military operations to cleanse 17 MAJOR CITIES. What does this mean?
MILITARY OCCUPATION! The armed forces will secure these cities.
CITIZEN PROTECTION! Innocent Americans relocated to safety.
ERADICATION OF THREATS! Gangs, terrorists, and illegals REMOVED.
WITHDRAWAL AFTER VICTORY! Military leaves after completing the mission.
Trump PROMISED us this plan. He KNOWS what’s at stake. The STORM is here, and it’s about to wipe the slate clean.
ARE YOU READY FOR WHAT’S NEXT?
Stay vigilant. Stay prepared.
Patriots, this is our moment. TRUMP’S RETURN WILL BE THE FINAL MOVE!
‘Betrayal’ – violation of a person’s trust or confidence.
Most people at some stage of their lives have unfortunately felt the excrutiating pain of betrayal; the heartbreaking notion of disloyalty, deceipt, disrespect and total violation of trust.
It takes a very long time to recover from the knife wound on your back and even if it heals, the scar remains, the only thing that vanishes is the trust.
It’s not easy to put into words how it feels, there’s a strong mix of emotions that arise when the trust is abruptly broken. But it forces you however, to analyse things; were you wrong in trusting in the first place? Were you naive to think you could?
I have been betrayed in my personal life, I know how it feels. I was able to heal and move on, but it took time, strength, determination, courage and faith in myself.
The world is about to wake up to the most brutal betrayal in the history of humanity and I fear the masses are not well equipped to deal with it.
I believe that those of us that have had some time to come to terms with it, are here to help others deal with the blow.
If you are here reading my words, just know that your role is vitally important. You will be needed. We are just getting ready, so stay strong, hold on and keep the faith.
We’ve all been betrayed by those we once trusted, but in exhange for the shattered trust in others, we have learned to trust ourselves like never before. That is where our strength lies, that is how we’ll make it through to the other side. ❤️❤️❤️
Yes, I have felt the bite of betrayal, more than once, and have healed from the repeated emotional blows. Do I still retain the scars buried deep within, probably, but that doesn’t give me pain anymore.
Some people manage to heal because they find Jesus. These people are about to betrayed again. It’s not about finding Jesus, it is about reconnecting with the Christ Consciousness that exists within your own heart that echoes the profound connection this great master teacher attempted to convey to a small portion of humanity some 2,000 years ago. However I am not here today to lecture on the failure of religion.
Disclosure of the truly dark secrets of humanity are about to blow wide open, in the coming days, months, and yes, even years. Will humanity be prepared for receiving the blow? That will depend on each individual, whether or not they are capable of consciously connecting to what is really important… that inner heart connection with Source. This connection is not dependent on outside alignment to lessons and dogmas. It is solely an inner connection, which is why a true spiritual teacher or guide will constantly remind you to quiet the mind and go within.
Those who have been programmed to believe in ideologies that are not logical will suffer the most as the idols they have blindly followed prove false. They will suffer not because they have to, but because they have made themselves incapable to thinking for themselves, incapable of feeling, incapable of connecting with the inner guidance we call intuition, the inner teacher.
How each individual manages will depend on a lot of factors, but it will vary. It doesn’t really matter to those who are here to assist and not judge. We who have been rejected by friends and family for our realizations and actions, who have resisted the siren’s call to believe the dogma of any human institution, we await the great unveiling of the secrets.
There will those to choose not to heal, who choose to experience the anger, hatred, and pain. There will be those who are confused. And there will be those who come to the calm ones and begin to ask questions. Follow your own inner guidance to decide whether or not to engage with any of these confused ones, when to step back, when to walk away.
I do not seek followers. I share no dogma. I only share what I have learned on my own and some things I have experienced. I have seen into the glimmers of the past and look into the future, but stay in the present, to feel, experience, and wonder about the mysteries of life.
How are you going to handle the deep dark secrets of those who have appeared to be leaders of our world? You will find out soon enough if you haven’t already. And even if you have dropped briefly into the dark world to catch glimpses, there is still more, some of which I have endeavored to share with you here.
Those who have been hidden for a long time are about to step out of the shadows. You know some of their names.
Some of whom have long stood in the limelight are about to disappear into the shadows. You know some of their names, too. Some have been gone for a long time, years in fact, but others played their part, with different faces. These players are about to step to the wings and off the stage.
We are about to move into the great reveal, the Apocalypse, as seen and prophesized by those who had the eyes to see through time and matter. As we move from one paradigm to another one, everything of the old must leave us, that includes belief systems that will no longer function in the new energies. We will not know how that feels until we walk through the energetic invisible gate that awaits.
Prepare yourself emotionally, mentally, and physically. Thrive to be as neutral in your reactions as possible, by being an observer.
Yes, I have known the pain of betrayal and learned that in 3D pain is the greatest teacher. Some people manage to learn the lesson, others chose to bury it deep within their subconscious layers only to have it manifest physically as emotional or physical issues. The pain must be allowed to dissipate, to be seen, felt and integrated, creating wisdom earned from experience, not resentment, not fear. Observe how you feel when the secrets are revealed, for some won’t recoil, some will be surprised and say, “But I knew that…” Your inner guide, your anointed holy consciousness, contains all that you need. Have patience and attend its lessons or not. Ultimately, it is your choice.
In America this is a week where thanks are given for what we have received. Let it also be a time to be grateful for what we have learned along the way, be it harsh or filled with kindness. I wish you all a Happy Thanksgiving… and learn to let the spirit of gratitude guide your path each day.
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