Eliza: Getting Back to my Roots

This morning I took my nearly everyday sunrise walk and almost immediately came upon one of our local wildlife, a marsh rabbit (Sylvilagus palustris). This smaller, darker cousin of the Eastern Cottontail can often be seen around Florida marshes and grasslands.  Yet, it is rare to see three of these animals (perhaps two… one being the first seen) during one walk like I did this morning.  Keeping in mind that repetition is sometimes a message of sorts, I looked up the shamanic meaning of ‘rabbit’:

Rabbits are guides into the shadow world, where our personal fears lie. When the rabbit shows up it is time to examine those deep reflexive fears that hold you back from growing. Do you keep bounding for the safety of your old patterns every time something new or challenging presents itself? If the answer is yes, the rabbit asks you to face your fears with compassion for yourself. You must accept that it is part of human nature to feel fear at times, but also believe that our fears need not paralyze our growth and movement.

Rabbit medicine is also very positive, showing us how to attract love, abundance, health, and a warm, dry burrow. We are guided to move through fear, living by our own wits, receiving hidden teachings and intuitive messages, quick thinking, strengthening intuition, and paradox. Rabbit represents humility, being quiet and soft and not self-asserting. If you see Rabbit or in any way, feel attracted to him, this may be a sign for you to wait for the forces of the universe to start moving again, to stop worrying and to get rid of your fears. Rabbit always indicates a need to re-evaluate the process you are undergoing, to rid yourself of any negative feelings or barriers, and to be humbler. (excerpted from: https://www.shamanicjourney.com/rabbit-power-animal-symbol-of-creativity-intution-paradox-and-fear)

Clearly, I am still undergoing a purging of sorts.  Yesterday I had to leave a Plasma Light Tribe call (see Kerry K’s website for information) as I was experiencing several factors (physical, mental, and emotional) which made listening to the call uncomfortable.  I went into the Zoom call session with a massive headache.  I have also been experiencing facial nerve pain probably related to some badly needed dental care… My old brittle molars have been cracking off and recently have become quite sensitive while chewing.  Then, during the call, I was feeling head pressure, pulsing at the crown, throbbing in my third eye, achy around the suboccipital upper cervical, and slightly nauseated.  Then, the call itself was granular, an unclear connection which was difficult for me to listen to as I was already dealing with head pain.  The Zoom call was not the same quality as usual since Kerry was using someone else’s equipment while on a trip away from home.

I messaged Kerry later, apologizing for leaving the call and explaining what was going on to the best of my ability.  She suggested that the pain (at least some of it) was due to resistance to feeling what needed to purge, to come, for me to let go.  I tuned in and confronted a massive wall of grief, probably related to my no longer being able to connect to my galactic Star Family.  Kerry mentioned in passing that by not feeling my connection to the Galactics was indicative of my not being in touch with myself as a Galactic.

This offhand comment spurred me to read a couple of my earliest blog postings and to notice there (in mid-2012) that I felt quite connected to being of Galactic origin (not a soul indigenous to Terra) and comfortable connecting with my unseen mentors and guides. Before I even started my blogging ‘career’ I had occasion to resonate with various messages and teachings from the Arcturians, Sirians, and Pleiadians.  So, what changed?  Why am I feeling so lost and disconnected now?  Or is this simply a temporary stage as my old story is deconstructed and I come into alignment with who and what I am truly?  At this point, I don’t really know.  I am well within the paradoxical place described as the unknown, a place that the chattering monkey mind naturally fears and resists.

Still, I continue to learn how to navigate without a map in this new realm of Innerstanding.  I can’t say the journey is easy or comfortable.  The old labels no longer apply.  And I haven’t yet quite transitioned to where I can actually enjoy talking to someone in person and be understood and to understand the mutual language of heart and mind.

Jason Estes maintains that ALL of humanity will be ascending. Although he stated this opinion (August 2020) before the beginning of the current state of vaxx world-wide, I would venture to say now that all of humanity who are able to somehow survive the shot (and boosters) and those who didn’t succumb to the mind programming and fear tactics will ascend.  There will be new technologies that will show up and be available to the public that should be able to correct any and all disease or imbalance in the physical body and aid with emotional and mental healing, as well. 

This opinion held by Jason and other spiritual guides differs from what I was being told by the archonic forces which, for a time, had my attention.  I see now that my spiritual journey such as it is was gravely interrupted on purpose and for the experience of seeing just how an artificial story of self could be rapidly constructed.  Intellectually, I understand this was an experience that I agreed to undergo at a certain level (soul contract) but it still hurts to realize just how conned I was.  If it was possible for me to fall for a lie, how much more difficult is it for those who have never felt connected to spirit at any time in their lives or who have strongly identified with religious dogma… the belief that they need to go through another to receive salvation, whether that be ‘believing in Jesus’ or going to church.

Roots… returning to our roots, whether they be Galactic ones in nature or Terran (earthbound) is an important part of any spiritual journey.  When we live on a planet, especially Terra, we are connected through our physical vehicle to the planet.  Earth-earthy… when the spirit leaves the body, the body reverts back to its basic elements, that of the soil and elements of the planet itself.

Even as an individual soul essence with a Galactic origin, I can identify with this planet as I have been here for many lifetimes and suffered through the identical trauma suffered by humanity for the past 19,000 or so years since the dark forces began the swift decline of the once 5D civilization known as Atlantis.  Those who were some of the first starseeds to arrive here, whether as colonists and later as star envoys (starseeds) all of us have been heavily involved in attempting to raise the frequency of the planet so it might return to where it was before the Fall.  It’s been a long and difficult journey.  Some of us are quite exhausted, tired of the strife and just want peace in order to fully heal.

Anyway, in meditation I can reach to Source and plant my energetic roots deep into the Earth Star chakra of the planet, encompassing all dimensions and frequencies.  Yet when I am just hanging out, I still get muddled and feel a sense of longing to really understand why I am still feeling disconnected.  I guess I have some work to do… or just BE.

Self-acceptance of what I am feeling and experiencing right now is a first step, that and a good dose of patience. 

Feel free to share below in the comments, if any one of you are experiencing similar bewilderment or other sensations.  If you wish, you can reach me via email at: bluedragonjournal@gmail.com or just comment below.  Only related comments to this topic will be acknowledged.

Namaste,

Eliza Ayres