A friend wrote this and I so resonate with this message being awake. It is a good thing and a curse to be awake and aware what is going on:

To all my friends out there who know what is really going on. To all my conspiracy theorist friends. Sometimes it’s a curse and not a blessing to be awake. In my over 45 years of behind the scenes, ‘invisible’, intelligence work, I feel compelled to share the following for your consideration.

Awakening is the most liberating, alienating, excruciating, empowering, lonely, confusing, freeing, frightening, expansive journey and if you find yourself struggling trying to process all this insanity, believe me when I say you are not alone.

No one talks about the darkness that accompanies awakening, or the grief we go through. Not only grieving the life and illusions that you once had but the realization that almost everything you thought you once knew, is a lie. The beliefs you’ve held, people you’ve trusted, the principles you were taught are ALL lies. Shattering illusions is never an enjoyable experience. There is a considerable amount of discomfort that comes with growth and the grieving process doesn’t stop there. With these newfound realizations, you will then find yourself grieving all over again.

*Grieving the loss of many relationships with people who just don’t “get it”.

*Feeling alone; being ridiculed and shamed, not only by the masses but for many of you, your very own family and friends too.

*Feeling like you no longer have much in common with the people you are surrounded by.

*Struggling with carrying on bullshit, shallow conversations that lack substance with those who are still fast asleep.

*Even feeling disconnected from your entire support system because they can’t see what you see.

*Some even grieve the loss of their ignorance- because “ignorance is bliss” and reality is harsh.

Awakening can be a lonely road and you will often find yourself journeying alone. There is no way to sugarcoat it.

*Awakening to the realities of this world is brutal. It will have you running through the entire gamut of human emotions.

*You have to master the art of diving down the darkest of rabbit holes only to come out and still function in daily life, and that’s a skill people don’t talk about enough.

Some of you are or will struggle with feeling disconnected from family and friends, it’s as though they exist in another world. Please know you are not alone, and not only are you not alone, you have an entire group of like minded folks standing with you.

We may be separated by miles, but we are deeply connected; in mind, purpose, and spirit.

God loves you and so do I.

Posted by Holly

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Note to Readers:

Oh, can I identify with this individual’s thoughts. Holly didn’t write this piece. I don’t know who did, but I have lived it for most of this lifetime. I know that many of those who arrive here and become followers of this little blog, may feel the same way.

We grieve that we are not heard or accepted for who we are. Yet, I’ve come to learn that first, I need to accept who I am and love myself despite the fact I am not like others. Or am I that different? Is it simply I was born with some gifts already activated within that others have had to shut down simply in order to survive the circumstances in which they have found themselves?

I have also come to know there are several stages to the awakening process. I’ve been around people who thought they were there, imagined they had a grasp on everything, had it all figured out and then wondered why things weren’t working for them.

Awakening is an never-ending process, an expansion of what is known… more of a re-membering of what has been forgotten prior to coming into this incarnation.

Living in a third density environment that is experiencing the extremes of duality is a challenge for those whose previous existence has been on the more balanced planes of fifth density and higher… for the starseeds who have graduated to the level where they can partake of experiences that do challenge.

We have forgotten we chose to come here. Perhaps we really didn’t fully comprehend how great our everyday lives would be challenged to simply be ourselves, innocent and unsullied by the darkness all around us. Yet, the fiery spirit within pushes us to our limits and beyond. We are consciousness, unbound by limitations and so we continue to expand into self-acceptance, self-love despite all the resistance from those who are around us.

And then one day, another person gives you an unsolicited smile, intuitively recognizing a kindred spirit in the face of a stranger… and in that moment, we feel the struggle has been all worth it.

We are here to be unique, not to fit in, but to add to the mix our special ingredient that lends spice and favor to humanity. Each of us in our own way is a piece of the puzzle and someday that puzzle will become whole, but first… we must discover our own wholeness by going within and connecting to Source. No one can do this for us as no one but our own heart holds the Key to self-awareness of that precious indestructible connection.

There is a fire within that awaits your attention. Only you can feed it with your attention and focus. It is a fire that will become a beacon of Light for others who find their own way through the darkness. Together, we will change the world and in so doing, raise the frequency of the Whole into the fourth density and on into fifth. It is for this purpose we have come, some to start the process, others to carry it and still others to finish it.

The first step starts by going within. Remember this is not just a physical battle we are undergoing by simply being present, but a spiritual one, as well. We are here to free humanity from the bonds that has impeded its natural spiritual evolution. In performing this mission by being ourselves, we show the way forward, even for those who reject us the most. Everything experienced becomes a seed that will lead to future growth. We are, all of us, gardeners for Source.

Eliza

https://sunnysjournal.com